Jesus, in Your name we pray. Come and fill our hearts today. Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name. - Paul Baloche
Remember my post here challenging myself to sing the lyrics of Oceans by Hillsong United and actually mean it? Well, Annie was certainly right about it being MESSY. It’s leading me away from relationships I never wanted to get rid of and leading me to places I’ve tried to pull away from for my own selfish reasons, to be honest. MESSY.
Life has been pretty overwhelming lately and I’ve struggled the past two days the most. I started to think that maybe all of this was a mistake, that maybe I wasn’t really cut out for being led where my trust is without borders. Then in the midst of my most recent pity party, Big Daddy Weave started playing in my headphones: All that I have is the life that You’ve given me. So Lord, let me live for You, my song with humility.
It’s a messy ride, but it’s a beautifully messy ride. For everything I’ve lost I really have been giving something even better in its place. I received the sweetest blog feedback lately from people making the same changes in their life after reading my words and nothing makes my heart happier.
It’s tough. I never promised it wouldn’t be. I did promise it would be worth it. But, don’t just take my word for it.. He promised you the same thing! If you’re taking this same challenge, I encourage you to hang in there. If you want to chat about it, feel free to email me: brittny[at]itsbrittny.com.
I scribbled these Chris and Conrad lyrics on a piece of paper I’ve been carrying around in my wallet: Lead me to the cross where Your love poured out. Bring me to my knees. Lord, I lay me down. Rid me of myself, I belong to You. Lead me, lead me to the cross. Every time I open my wallet to purchase a Pumpkin Spice Latte (which honestly is waaaaay too often, y’all), I see this reminder to continue ridding myself of everything keeping me from Him. More of Him and less of me, always.
I’m falling on my knees, offering all of me. Jesus, you’re all this heart is living for.